Dépaysement is a French word without a literal English translation. It is how the French describe that feeling you get when you’re not in your home country – like maybe there’s a part of you that aches for the familiar, but another part feels right at home (there’s also a sense of disorientation associated with it, and that probably applies to me more than I’d like to admit). I think I might have this feeling permanently etched into me. Don’t ask me to say the word though, my French is awful.
I’ve always dreamed of traveling full time. In college, I moved to the Netherlands. After college, Costa Rica. And the occasional, random jaunt in between, of course. That wasn’t nearly enough, and I knew it, but somehow I allowed American societal pressures to suck me into a “real job.” After trying out a few different careers and trying to jump onto the relationship-marriage-baby train, I was still unfulfilled. After taking advantage of how much my parents love me and living with them for a year rent free, I decided to see if returning to the unknown would fill that void.
When I decided to leave home and make a home in Thailand indefinitely, I had no plan and less money. Despite my overwhelming desire to just wander, I took a teaching job for my first two years here. Now that I’m done with that, I’m living that freelance life for now – photography, writing…all the things (ps, hire me!). It’s no use trying to say where I’ll be next…if there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that my little world can change in an instant, and life never really asks for my opinion or permission.
I’m not one to settle. I’m not sure if that means settle down or settle for less than everything? Maybe it’s both. I intend to change things up for as long as it takes for me to find whatever it is I’m looking for – I’ll be sure to let you know when I find it. Until then, I’ll use this (somewhat ill-titled) site to share mostly photographs, some musings, travel tips, maybe a tune or two. It’s a constant work in progress. I hope you’ll enjoy the ride as much as I do.
“Set your life on fire. Seek those who fan your flames.” – Rumi